For What I Said
Today a lie was said in my behalf and to all those it concerned, I’m sorry.
I have no clue what will happen next, but right now is all that matters.
In case you want to see inside my cold and empty heart, remember that I’m just average.
I had no compassion and I let my guards down.
One demotion to endure.
I wish I could say it will never happen again, but I cannot.
I refuse.
For there is another lie.
I did tell a lie which left you in pain.
I did say I was sorry, but now I question if saying I'm sorry was in the right.
I could and did cry with tears, empty heart filled with fear.
We used to have interest, a bond if you must, and now all I want is to break free.
At first it seemed natural, no harm done, but feeling your pain started my ranking.
I was lower then zero, with nothing to look forward to.
I have myself, but that’s not much now.
My lie popped out, which was for the best I’m sure.
And I’m not going to wonder back.
But for now, all I can do is wait.
I am not looking for a letter of approval or secrets behind your words.
And I advise you to watch your tongue, for lies rest in all of us.
White lie, dark lie.
Sincere or intentional.
They're all the same.
My words cut me a wound and stitches are a must.
Stitching that will mark upon me a scarlet letter.
Those words tore me from the world, and purgatory is a place where no man wants to explore. But I made that choice.
You did not.
No one is perfect, but I, I made that first move.
I lied to your face, but for the best reasons.
One day you'll thank me.
Just hope not one day too late.